So just like any other random nite I am sitting on the couch checking out my facebook. As I am scrolling down to see new updates, pics etc a album catches my interest. This friend of mine adn her daughter(who is a lil older than Ariyana) has been with out her hubby for 5 months now since he was deployed to Iraq. I come across this pic and immediately I start bawling uncontrollably. For my fellow widows/widowers that have a little one I am sure you can agree with me tha the pic you will see is BEYOND emotional. If only our life could be different, if only my princess could hug her daddy like that more than one more time!!!! Ugggghhhh this is so hard right now but I knew I had to get it out. They have been reunited (the pic is of her daughter hugging her daddy while crying) and I am beyond happy for her and her family, and for those that will not be reunited as a family until we are all in Heaven stay strong, positive and do all you can to keep their memory alive for your children.
I am not a widow nor can I even begin to imagine the emotion that cast over you upon seeing this picture. There is nothing that I can say or do that will take away all of those moments and any moment that you will encounter in the future. All I can say is that I am here. As much as I have said it I am sure you will forever need to be reminded, you are stronger than anything that I could have imagined, you are raising that child and living your life as if Josiah does and will always be proud of you for. You are living your life for yourself, for your child and for him. His memory is alive because of you! I'm glad my keys got locked in the car yesterday because although discussion about the night before was not in detail I know you needed to let some of it out. As I said yesterday, if the tears need to flow..let them. If you need to say something...say it. When all is said and done I am here even if all you need is a listening ear! I love you with all of my heart!
ReplyDelete