A little defeated

This story will remain completely nameless. I have to do this to get this off of my chest and no longer in my body and thoughts. All i can say is that the feelings that overwhelm me is hurt...pure hurt. for 2 days out of this week I have been beyond stressesdabout something that never should have been a issue. It has taken a lot of energy out of me and creating major battles within me. I have done everything in my power to be a different person then I was before Jan 07. I have done everything in my power to not fall back into old habits. But for some reason people feel the need to test me. All I can say is THANK YOU. You showed me that I truly have changed. As much as some of my old ways wanted to come out, I refrained, thought about every response thoroughly before sending. It's a shame that for close to a couple years now you have been referring to us as family and here to help each other, But the second something is done that is not in your favor this is what happens. I am not here to be taken advantage of. I am not here for anything other than taking care of Me and Ariyana and Kassandra. I am hoping this does not go the way I foresee, but in the event that it does. I can at least walk away knowing I did something from my heart and for no other reason. I can walk away with a clean conscious knowing that I opened all doors and allowed people to be that close to me. Today is a better day that I know for sure.

I will no longer let any of this affect me in a negative way. I have nothing but love for you guys!