All in the name of Love

These last few weeks have definitely been trying ones for me. A close friend of mine had her son's "Papi" (grandpa) pass away. I did not get a chance to formally meet him. I did see him once coming home from a Dr.s appointment and he went straight to the room, because the appointment had taken so much out of him. I can say that after the weeks that have passed and being at his service I got to know more about him, other than what I already knew, which was that he was a GREAT grandfather to my friends son. We knew the time would come, just not sure how much longer he had. Her and I have had many talks about the affect it may have on her son, but we never talked about the affect it may have on us. I knew I would be a key person in helping her, being that I have been there before, and I am a techy geek LOL. so it all started one night with me telling her I can get the binder out. for those that do not know me the binder is basically all the important information needed in my life if I was to pass away. One tab happens to have funeral information, people I used as well as my plot info. At first she says no, then says go get the binder. Well I think it only took 2 days before she actually had to use the info that I gave her. Being that he was going to be cremated she knew she wanted a slide show and for the most part knew what songs were to be used, but of course wanted them blended LOL. Needless to say we got it all done, late nights of program layouts, prayer card layouts, scanning, organizing pics, and adding the songs. I did not realize the affect it was having on me until we got to take a break from the planning and when it came time to resume the planning I immediately felt the emotional tension slowly strangling me. At one point we talked about it, and she listened but could not relate. She later came around to fully understanding what I had meant the night before. Regardless of what all in all I can say this trying time was needed. I needed to know I am still human, I needed to know it still hurts, I needed to know I miss my husband like crazy, I needed to be reminded of what I have lost so that I can continue growing and appreciating what I have. It was a hard, emotional road that is now over (as far as planning). No matter what I was going through I would never take back the time I got to put into this.

May he now Rest In Peace.