RIP Tinted Windows

Most people tint their car windows to have a hip car etc....not me...I had all my windows tinted so that I was no longer vulnerable to the world.

In my early widowhood days most of my crying was done while driving in my car, I felt this was the one place I could be me, didn't have to be strong, could get in a REALLY GOOD cry without anyone being around. It's where I would play his funeral play list over and over, torturing myself. It's where I would talk out loud to him, talk out loud to myself...and feel like no one could see me. I knew it was illegal to have the front windows tinted, but didn't care, it was my safe place. Well the time has finally come that I was pulled over (3 years later) and had to remove the front tint. Jess did it today and boy was it bittersweet when I received a the picture shown. As much as it will be missed, I am glad that it is gone...it was a constant reminder of the "emotional cleansing" that would occur. I have evolved and my crying has lessened and when I do I have found a indoor location LOL....so I am ready for my car to be my car again, not my safe haven.

RIP Tined Windows 12/2/10