Unmotivated

I have had a lot on my mind, but have been too unmotivated to type it out! not sure why, just know that is how I have felt.

Some of the ramblings in my brain with out going into further detail are as follows:

• Victimization-must people do it? it is unnecessary to do it and to put words in peoples mouth.
• Guilty again-of being so happy, and of having the wedding of my dreams with another man.
• Wedding day-wish I can do it all over because it was SOOOO much fun.
• Some Friends-just really are not friends, and I am ok with that, once again it is their loss.
• Thankful-for those that have stood by our side with out being hypocrites.
• Widowhood-I have a love/hate relationship with it. sometimes I love reading others blogs etc and sometimes I am disgusted by them, not because of what they say, but because they say EVERYTHING I am feeling and then some.
• 3 years-I can not believe it has come so fast.
• Pook turning 5-who would have thought it would have been done with out him.

I am sure there is more but that is all that comes to mind at the moment. and to my fellow widow readers please do not take personal (although I am sure you wouldn't), just wish we all weren't a part of the dreaded club!