What was left

Is now GONE! I knew the day would come that there would not be physical proof that Josiah existed. and what i mean is that it was early after the accident that I accidentally erased his last voicemail to me. In my time I began to give some of his stuff away to people that I felt should have items of his, most of his clothes went to his brother cuz they fit him at the time. There are some things I knew I would never give away and I kept his deodorant. Most stuff is now packed away minus the one shirt that still hangs over my bed and his deodorant. There was one thing that I felt was untouchable...no one would be able to change..well when you have a 4 year old I guess they manage to change things without even knowing they changed things...well it has happened the one last thing that I had to remember him by physically is gone...the other nite I almost freaked out when I realized it was gone...yesterday I got in the car to confirm, and yes it truly is gone. What once was my #1 is now who knows what...but it is no longer him that is for sure. I knew the time would come, and maybe the time was right..just wish I would have had one last chance to push the #1 and feel his height and how he liked to sit

RIP Baby...always thinking of you!